Worry Wort

I am sure that everyone is feeling the financial pinch these days.  I know we are and it has been easier than I thought it would be.  Let me explain. See, I am a worrier at heart.  It takes a lot of effort on my part to pretend I am not worrying, when, in fact, I usually am, and about everything under the sun.  I would worry back when we were financially stable.  In all my prayers I ask the Lord to help me worry only about the things that I need to worry about and I trust that he does.  Help me that is. 

Best example of this is my lack of worry over our financial situation.  Technically speaking, I don't know if we will be able to pay the bills next month, but I'm not worried.  It is a really weird position for me.  Don't get me wrong, I am worried about things.  Like whether Rory's nose is ever going to stop running.  Or mine for that matter.  I worry about being too hard on Cadence and expecting to much of her.  I worry that Brady and I don't spend enough couple time together.  I worry that I haven't made it to church the past two weeks due to illness.  I worry that I don't read to my kids enough.  I always worry about leaving the garage door open.  

You get the point.   

But I am not worried about paying the bills.  I feel like I should be worried, but I'm not.  I have been thanking the Lord every day for this blessing.  I know that something will work out and everything will be just fine.  That we will have what we need, no more, no less.  

I also thank the Lord every day that we live near both our families and that they provide us with so much love and support.  That is one of the biggest blessings in our lives right now.  

I also feel I should share how the Lord has helped us prepare.  A while back I went to a Grocery Smarts class (If you haven't been you NEED to go!) and I have been using sales and coupons ever since to build up our food supply.  Every week I felt pushed to log in and stock up on things we might need.  Every week for the last four months I have felt pushed hard to do this.  This week I have felt nothing.  I got on to look, but I had an overwhelming feeling of peace and calm.  Almost as if the Lord was telling me that we didn't need anything this week.  It's a good thing to since we don't have the money for it.  I was amazed!  I looked around my house and realized that I have enough Food and Diapers and toilet paper for THREE WHOLE MONTHS!!! The Lord was preparing us for this for three whole months and I didn't even really notice it!  I am so so so grateful that I was allowing myself to be prompted (not always the case with me...I can be rather stubborn when I think I am in charge) and then following through.  I didn't even realize what the Lord was doing.  He was answering a prayer I hadn't even had the chance to give yet and I was in tears last night Thanking him for his fore thought on behalf of our family.  It is truly humbling and awe inspiring for me.  

I hope that you are all doing alright and have everything that you need!