This past year has been full of ups and downs for us. It is pretty sad that when I look back on 2011 I mostly feel tired. It was a long year full of illness for us. But it was also full of so many good things.
Beckah was born in March. Her birth was one of best experiences of my life. She brought a feeling of completion to our family that I had never felt before. Her personality really started to blossom in December 2011. She is very vocal and super busy. And she finally fell in love with her daddy. That had to be one of the sweetest things I have ever watched.
Cadence started school. Holy cow. She is so grown up. She always has been to grown up for her age, but her starting school was really a shock to my system. It's crazy that something you have known is coming for years could be a shock. She is excelling in school. Loves her friends and can read now. She is so brilliant and wonderful and makes my job as her mother so easy. I feel extremely lucky to have her. She is an awesome big sister and is probably the most excited about the new baby.
Dear Rory. Rory turned three and entered my least favorite year in the process of growing up (so far anyway). She is stubborn and difficult (wonder where she gets that from?). But she is so witty, loving, and very defensive of her family. She has so much personality packed into her little tiny frame. We have slowly been able to get her allergy/sensitivities under control and despite being perfectly capable of using the potty, she more often chooses not to. I have a feeling that Rory and I are the most alike and will be bumping heads more often than not. She will help me learn and grow as a mother in ways that I know my other children will not.
Probably the biggest surprise of 2011 was finding out about our 4th baby. It was a huge shock and I was very surprised by my reaction. I am slowly starting to get excited for another baby. Part of me is super sad that I won't have the time with Beckah that I had with my other girls. I will probably always feel this way. Deep down, though, I know that I wouldn't be pregnant right now if the Lord didn't think this child needed to be here now at this time in our family. So far my pregnancy has been crazy and everything has been upside down and inside out compared to my other pregnancies. I am hoping that things calm down soon so that I can just enjoy this time. This will be our last baby and I want to enjoy every moment that I can. I don't want to look back and wish I would have done things differently.
Brady. He is my rock. He really is. He is so steady and reliable. He is such a good dad, always stepping up without complaint when I am exhausted or at my wits end. He is excelling at his job. I am loving that he enjoys the work he is doing. I am so glad that I look forward to him coming home everyday, and not just for the break from the kids, but because I want to see him and tell him how my day went and here all about what he did today even if half the time I have only a vague idea of what he is talking about. I still love to hear him tell me about it.
So on to 2012. I was going to set myself some goals. I had a few in mind but in the end I decided that my goal for this year is to improve. Improve myself, my family, my photography, my motherhood, my relationships, my ability to serve, my relationship with God...you get the picture. I don't want to over do it, but I need to start doing little things that make me feel better about me and help me to grow into a better me.
Happy New Year everyone! I hope that 2012 is our best year yet!
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