Rory's 3 months and other news

Rory was three months old on the 2nd! She is showing much more of her personality now and is spending most of the day awake. Cady loves this! She loves to help take care of her sister during the day and there is always something to do. Rory has officially entered the drooling phase of babyhood. I was worried that she was teething at first since Cady had her first tooth at 2 and 1/2 months but it seems that she is just drooly and not in any pain. Here are her 3 month pictures. I decided to just wait and post the nice ones for you instead of junk ones from the crappy camera on the actual day of.

My other new is of a sad nature. On Thursday I got a call from my sis-in-law, Heather. She told me that my OB/GYN, Dr. Kahle, had taken his own life Nov. 29th. (Thanks again Heather for the call...I would have missed his funeral if not for your thoughtfulness) I spent most of Thursday in shock. I called my mom and asked her to double check and make sure that it was indeed my Dr. Kahle and not someone else. Sadly my mom confirmed that it was he. I spent most of the day Friday either angry or sad. Angry because I didn't want to find a new doctor! He was the BEST doctor. He was always so kind and concerned about me and my family. He was patient and thorough. He had a great sense of humor and always made me feel comfortable (not easy to do in his line of work). He delivered both my babies. He would always answer Cady's million and one questions at my OB appointments. I was very angry that I was going to have to replace him. He was one of a kind and irreplaceable. My anger would give way to sadness and a million questions that I will never have answers to. Dr. Kahle was a very giving man. He served an honorable mission and married a wonderful woman in the temple. He has four beautiful children aging from sixteen to seven. He was serving as a member of the bishopric in his ward and was always willing to serve others when they needed him and especially when they didn't. My biggest question was why someone who had so much and had lived such a good life would choose to end it? Why would he choose not to be here to baptize his youngest son or see his children marry and have children of their own? Why didn't he tell someone how he was feeling? What was going to happen to him now?

His funeral was amazing. It was like attending stake conference here in Vegas. The Chapel was packed all the way to the stage. It was impossible to find a parking space. There were so many people there who had been touched by this one man. Many had come to the church because of his example of charity and love. I was in awe and deeply saddened that we had to be there at all! His closest friend and colleague gave a beautiful eulogy. I could tell it was the hardest thing he had ever done. His bishop spoke and the spirit during his words was so thick I felt like I was breathing it. He spoke of his own guilt and anger, and how he wished that he had answers to give. He then spoke words that touched me. He said that Dr. Kahle knew he made a mistake. We knew that he had made a mistake. But one mistake did not erase an entire life time of goodness, kindness, and loving. The Lord will take into account our entire life in his final judgement. Those words brought me so much peace. It made me so sad to think that a man who had done so much good in his life wouldn't get the credit for it. I was also gently reminded that the right to judge was the Lords alone.

I left that service with a much lighter heart. I also felt my Testimony strengthened. I know that Jesus is the Christ and that He knows our hearts and minds. I know that He loves me despite my many mistakes and that it is only through Him that I can receive salvation. I know that He will never give me more than I can bear and that when I think that I can't go on all I have to do is turn to Him and He will ease my burdens. I know that I am a member of his true church.

I will miss Dr. Kahle. I am sad that he choose what he did. I pray for his family, that they may feel the love of the Lord in what must feel like a very dark time. I am so thankful for the knowledge that I have of eternal life! It brings me comfort to know that this life is only the beginning. I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.